Not so good Samaritans and impatience

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas!


Okay, Friday we went back to Lexington to get the rest of my stuff. It was cold and raining all day, but my dad and I actually made pretty good time getting everything loaded, cleaned, and back on the road. The problem is that after we got around Bloomfield, the Chevy Tahoe started having issues and acted up the rest of the way back. It took us four hours to get home! We're not sure if it was the fuel filter or rear end pulling too hard or what, but we would go 10-12 miles and have to pull over for 15 minutes, we'd go 5-6 miles and pull over, you get the idea. We pulled over more than 20 times between Bluegrass Parkway, I-65, and throughout Glasgow. Not once did one single person stop to see if we needed help or they could call someone for us or anything! People are rude and inconsiderate sometimes!! Anyway, it took most of the night, but we finally got everything unloaded so I am now officially moved out from Nicholasville.

Now for the impatient part...I have no patience and a short temper. I know this, I've been working on it. Sometimes I get upset at the kids or people over things I shouldn't, but I am doing alot better. However, I have barely been back a week and I'm hearing rumors that I don't want to be hearing and putting up with the same crap I moved away from in the first place! It is really frustrating!

On a brighter note, I still have not smoked a cigarette, even despite being in a smoky bar most of the night last night! Yippee for me. Hehe I was the designated driver for my sister and her friends! LOL Go figure. I won't even discuss the night except that dinner at Shogun was really good, I had never eaten there before. Okay, I'm going to get off my soapbox now. If you've read this far, bless you!

Merry Christmas!

Me and Aurea

My Granny, my mom, my son Adam, me, my dad, my daughter Aurea, my sister holding my niece, my nephew, and my brother-in-law.

Merry Christmas to all. Thank you for the comments and concern. I am far from superwoman, but I appreciate the sentiments. Hope everyone has had a great holiday.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!

We're moved...Kind of

Well, the last few days have been really hectic! I finished work on Friday afternoon and went home to finish packing and load everything up. After hours of loading the truck, we found out my uncle's FedEx truck was not big enough and we weren't going to be able to make everything fit! Not to mention, I was out of boxes so I still had stuff unpacked and cleaning to do and not much time. It was a rough afternoon. We finally took what we could and left the rest, we will go back next weekend or something to get the rest. It was crazy of course if my son hadn't of packed everything and I mean everything (he packed his TV! I'm not kidding I went to bed and he packed literally everything in his room! I was wondering how I ran out of boxes until I discovered this!). Anyway, we got to Glasgow around 8:30 Friday night. No, not Glasgow, Scotland. Although Glasgow got its name from Scotland, it is actually in Kentucky! I moved 2.5 hours away, not across the world! LOL

Anyway, we were all tired and there were things I could not find. We called it a night and made the most out of our first night with limited access to our stuff. Yesterday, we unloaded furniture and boxes into storage and the stuff we needed came to mom's. I then realized my daughter's underwear/sock container was still in Nicholasville! I had to go to Wal-mart to get her some! My mom wanted me to pick up a few things too and hurry back. Yeah right, that place was ridiculous! I think we have all of the major stuff here now, but there is still a lot of work to do! I'm trying to relax today. Tomorrow night is when we do our family stuff (except Santa since he comes Christmas morning) so I know after adding Christmas stuff to the mix there will be even more to do!

Sheesh, the next few days will be really busy too! I'm hanging in there though. I got to spend the evening with Shawn last night so that was a nice change. I wanted to do some visiting today, but my daughter has an upper respiratory infection and can't go out! Oh well, after the holidays....

In case I'm not back on for a day or two, Merry Christmas to all. Hope you have a safe and happy one.

Tomorrow is only a day away

Wow, I can't believe I am actually moving tomorrow! It just does not seem real. My house sure looks like it though. I know people think I'm crazy when they come over right now because my house is a disaster. But hey, most of it is boxes! Everything's a mess, but who cares? It's all being moved out tomorrow afternoon anyway.

Tychia came over last night to say goodbye and I got a few phone calls. Said goodbye this morning too and I know it's not done yet. It's sad, I hate it! I'm trying to stay positive though, I have a lot of people to see when I get back to Glasgow so that should help!

Today is day 10 of not smoking! Yay me! I'm proud of myself, but it's still hard, especially while trying to move! I got so much done last night though. Shannon kept both kids so I was able to finish Aurea's room without her there to pull everything back out!

Well, I guess this is it. I have today and half a day tomorrow at work and that's it. Then, we're leaving! My life is changing fast!!

P.S. Yes, she is obsessed with Hannah Montana! And the reason we're moving so close to Christmas is so once we get home for Christmas we don't have to come back and do it again. We can just start fresh while the kids are on Winter Break. Thanks for the comment.

Aurea's 6th birthday

By request, birthday pictures

Yes, summer clothes!

Amy, Mindy, Me, Beth

Melynda, Avrie, Aurea in front center

Me and my baby girl

Hannah Montana sheets

Hannah Montana pajamas

Hannah Montana CD

Aure'as grnadma and her

Avrie's brothers

Aurea and Melynda

Avrie

Avrie and Beth

Aurea, Melynda, and Avrie

Aurea and her step-grandfather

Adam loves bumper cars

My crazy life

Aurea's birthday party Saturday was fun. We went to Gattitown and the kids had a blast. Not everyone showed up, but the ones who did were thrilled since they got the extra game cards and bumper car or carousel passes. I developed the pictures and scanned them all into the computer so I could post them to myspace only to find out my internet has been disconnected! (I'm at work now!) In other words, I'm going to try to save them to CD and then add them, if not, I guess I'll get them up there eventually. I think Adam had the most fun! He got to ride bumper cars and play some of the arcade games that were above the younger kids. I rode the roller coaster simulator with him, the seat shakes when the screen goes around the turns and loops. It was fun! Aurea spent most of her time on the carousel. Everybody had a blast!!

I'm still not smoking for those who have asked! Yippee, 8 days now! When does it get easier? Actually, it is MUCH easier than it was the first few days, but still not easy.

Three more days before the big move. Mom, dad, and Uncle Abner are coming up Friday morning (yeah it keeps changing) to help finish packing. When Uncle Tony gets done unloading his truck in Louisville, he is coming down. Then we all get to load it up and head to Glasgow. Adam is very excited. Aurea still not thrilled, but starting to come around.

Court was a pain yesterday, I'll spare you the details. Work has been hectic with it being almost the end of the year plus me leaving on Friday. My life is crazy right now, but hopefully it will settle down soon.

Moving/Packing Tips

onthegomom said...
Happy Birthday to your daughter! Have fun packing. I have lived in my house for 17 years and I have no idea what I am going to do when we move in about year (that's the plan anyway). If you have any good packing tips, you must share!!

--- I should have tons, I've moved enough! Okay for starters, don't plan on moving four days before Christmas! (It can't always be helped, trust me, I know -- but it's not ideal in cold, nasty weather with holidays coming!) Now for the packing tips:

• Start early! I waited until the last minute once and it was awful! If you start early (2 weeks for me, whatever works for you, after 17 years you probably have alot more stuff than I do!) you will have time to actually sort things out and get rid of junk and avoid alot of last-minute stress!
• Throw that stuff out! If you haven't touched it in like 17 years, it's time to get rid of it! I'm a pack-rat but eventually you get tired of moving stuff you will never ever use.
• Plan ahead before actually packing -- make sure you have tons of boxes, tape, and newspaper or bubble wrap on hand (I do not recommend packing peanuts!)
• Pack knick knacks, picture frames, and non-necessity items first and in advance. You're not using them every day so why not get them out of the way and then see how things are progressing? Be sure you wrap them well to avoid broken glass/porcelain pieces everywhere.
• Fit things together like a puzzle, the more you can fit into a box (without making it so heavy it can't be lifted!) the better. Saves space and time during moving.
• LABEL EVERYTHING CLEARLY!!!! I can't stress that enough! It helps to know which boxes go in which room, which boxes are fragile, which ones are most needed, and in my case-- which ones go with us to my mom's vs. which ones go into storage. It makes a huge difference.

What else? I'm sure I have more, but that's all I have for now. Hope it helps!!

A little bit of everything

Wow! I actually have comments to respond to! I'm responding to a comment because I felt it needed addressing and where else would be a better place? LOL Damama T responded to my poem so Here goes:

Damama T said... Well meaningly, everyone always says, buck up... look at the bright side... hold on, things will get better... it could be worse... etc. etc. But if in your heart you truly feel the way your poem sounds, I am begging you to please find a way to locate a licensed clinical social worker to help you. They differ from psychiatrists and psychologists in that they actually help you learn to live TODAY and get through all its pain, while healing yesterday's hurts. Please take a minute to check out my story at http://damama2all.blogspot.com/2007/12/happy-anniversary-and-thank-you-cheryl.htmland feel free to email me if you have questions.
You CAN make the hurt go away and "let go of the past, my mistakes, my regrets, and all the wasted time" and you can climb into a better state -- You just have to find someone qualified to help you do it.
Good luck. xoxo

Thank you so much for the comment and support. I truly feel cared about. What you don't know is that I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder:
http://www.bpdcentral.com/resources/basics/main.shtml

The link explains better than I can and I don't want to waste time copying and pasting when you can read it if you're interested. Basically, my main issue is having to deal with constant, drastic mood swings. I experience extreme highs and lows, but more lows than highs. I fit into 9 out of the 10 criteria for BPD (only required to fit 5 for a diagnosis!). Anyway, after my diagnosis by a psychiatrist, I was referred to the UK (University of Kentucky) Undergraduates in Psychology since they work on a sliding fee scale and I didn't have insurance at the time. Long story short I got dropped by my psychologist and stopped my meds.

However, prior to that, I spent a year in Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). It helped me control my anger and to learn to deal with my emotions rather than acting on them. In other words, instead of lashing out at those who care, or more like myself, I channel it. I no longer have the same reactions. Now when I'm upset, I call a friend, play on the computer, write stories, or write poetry (like the poem you read). It helps me release those feelings without actually acting on them.

In other words, I really am okay. Some of my writing may not reflect that, but it's how I express myself. I don't communicate well in actual conversations, but I can write all day long! I probably should still be on meds, but I'm in the middle of moving and changing my whole life so it's too much right now to try to pay for therapy and meds, etc. etc. but I am dealing with my emotions constructively.

I'm amazed, however, that so many people do say it will get better, hang in there, etc. and don't understand (not just here, but people who see me every day!). I guess I just wanted to say thank you for noticing and caring and for the great advice. I also wanted you to know that I am okay. I've learned to take it one day at a time and to live for my kids and not everyone else. It was a hard lesson to learn. : (

Okay, other news: I decided to quit smoking!

Thanks to my friend Heather being the inspiration that she is and to my son nagging about my health (and his), I bought the nicotine patches at lunch Monday. Now as a pack-a-day smoker, this is not easy, but I have been cigarette free for 47.5 hours now!! Guess you gotta start somewhere, but GRRRR I just want to pull my hair out!!

Seriously, I'm doing well, but I am full of nervous energy right now. I probably should not have decided to quit smoking 11 days before moving (9 days now), but I promised Adam I would buy the patches instead of cigarettes when I got paid, so I did! I feel like jumping around or something though, this is harder than it sounds to someone who has never smoked. If you have, then you understand, and thank you.

Men will be Boys

Boys will be boys....and men will be boys! I don't care how old they get, men never grow out of wanting to take things apart and figure them out. Some have cars, others enjoy sports, some like video games, and some just like to take things apart and put them back together in another format. One of my co-workers enjoys the latter.

I work for an engineering firm and the surveyors often go out and take photographs of drainage basins, drainage ditches, and other things I do not understand. As such, I get the disposable cameras (we don't use digital because my boss worries about the cameras getting lost or dropped into a sanitary sewer, etc.) and take them to Rite-Aid for one-hour developing and then pick up the developed film. Needless to say, I spend alot of time at Rite-Aid. This morning a co-worker asked me whether the disposable cameras are then thrown away or recycled. Of course, I had to ask why! He decided the capacitor that ignites the flash and allows the picture to be taken (please do not ask me specifics on this) could theoretically be used to create a stun gun (only someone in engineering could come up with this!). Why not go to Spencer's and buy a zapper or other device? He says, where is the fun in that. THis would create more zap and I just want to see if it actually works. Yeah, okay. So I asked, they actually send the empty cameras back to Kodak for refurbishing so they can basically repackage the same camera and sell it back to you as new! Go figure. Guess we'll never know if this actually works, but if it does, I'm glad I'm not the unlucky guinea pig!! LOL

Tuesday was my daughter's birthday. She is now six and loved going to McDonald's, eating cupcakes her grandmother brought over, and getting to watch Disney Channel with mommy until bedtime. She did not understand that her party was not the same day. We're actually having it the 15th due to scheduling issues with family members, but that is hard to explain to her! She still enjoyed the attention though and cannot wait for the gifts she gets to load up on 10 days before Christmas!

Wednesday was our first snow here in Kentucky. It wasn't anything to brag about though. It melted as soon as it hit anything so it was basically a cold, wet day with kids saying, "What good is snow if we can't play in it or have a snow day!" Poor things. I'm glad that's all it was, I despise snow, especially driving in it. This time of year, I'm ready to fly south for the winter!

I called Wal-mart on Wed. and was told I could have all the boxes I wanted for free as long as I came in around 11 to 11:30 p.m. when the night stockers would be hard at work unpacking all of those boxes. Wal-mart was still busy at 11:15 p.m. (Christmas is close!) and it was freezing outside! However, I got a lot of boxes and began packing. I'm far from done, but at least I have a good start and I know if I run out of boxes, I can always brave the cold and head back to Wal-mart in the middle of the night!

Moving Soon

I'm in a dark mood. I am going to be moving soon. Not to a big nice house or across town, but back to my hometown to live with my parents. I'm 29 with two kids and having to move back home! It's really depressing. I'm okay, just more frustrated than anything. Here's my poem I wrote:

As I sit here and wonder what went wrong
how did my life get so far off track for so long?

All I've ever wanted is to be happy and feel worthwhile
so why is it so hard to find a reason to smile?

Why am I unable to find the things I seek?
does trying this hard make me weak?

Am I destined to always fail and face wrath?
how did I ever get on this path?

For every step forward and two steps back I want to scream,
somebody please wake me up, tell me it's a dream.

Where are my friends, love, success, and all the things I should have by now?
I just seem to keep missing them or they are passing me by somehow.

Get a good education and do your best they always told me
I got two degrees and tried hard yet it doesn't seem meant to be

Be a good person you will be loved and you'll go far in life
if this is true, why can't I get ahead, why so much strife?

Why do I live in a world filled with so much pain and fear?
my own seclusion that closes in more with each passing year.

Why do I make mistakes with nowhere left to turn
how many times must I screw up before I finally learn?

I have hurt people and I have pushed people away
For that I am sorry, because all I ever wanted was for you to stay

I want to be happy and share with other in glory
that just does not seem to happen, it is not my story.
I

love with everything I have but I hurt so much more
sometimes I just wonder what all of it is for

I cannot let go of the past, my mistakes, my regrets, and all the wasted time
out of this state and into a better place I wish to climb

I have ups and downs, good times and bad
but through it all I still remain sad

This pain is something I deal with from day to day
One day I will finally find my way

Albus Dumbledore

Harry Potter Personality Quiz by Pirate Monkeys Inc.

Explanation of the Results:This type of personality test uses four indexes of personality and the combination of the four is your personality type. The first index relates to how you interact with other people Introverted (I), meaning you keep more to yourself. The second relates to how you make decisions; whether you're Intuitive (N), getting answers from within. The third relates to whether you're more emotional and Feeling (F) . The fourth relates to whether you prefer things to be organized, meaning you're Judging (J).

Yep, all me. Thanks for my blogger friend who posted this. I took it and got the above result. I certainly keep to myself more than anything, but that doesn't mean I don't like to get out and have a good time with others. Intuitive is where I get most of my answers, but not all. There is a time and place for intuition and a time and place for being analytical. I'm am absolutely an emotional person! Finally, I'm in judging because I prefer organization. Funny as it is, my house completely lacks organization at the moment, but it's driving me crazy. At work, my area is immaculate and organized to a tee!

Thanksgiving is Over

Happy belated Thanksgiving to all! I had a nice holiday and I hope you did as well. The turkey and sides were nice. However, it was great to see my family from out of town and to see all of the kids in the family. I was still glad to be done with the hustle and bustle though.

Yesterday was great. Aurea and I went to visit my friend Heather and her son Zack. Aurea and Zack are both five and had a great time playing together. I simply had a great time getting to visit with an adult! lol! Even better, last night, Shawn came over and we stayed up watching movies and talking until about 3:30 in the morning! Actually, I think he left around 3, but I didn't get to bed until 3:30! I can't remember the last time I stayed up that late! Luckily, my mom got up with the kids this morning, thank goodness for grandparents, lol!

Today, Shawn and I went to lunch at a local Mexican restaurant. It was wonderful! I have been home with my parents and daughter tonight. My son went to my sister's for the night. Tomorrow, we head back home. Thanksgiving and the long weekend are almost over. We all get to go back to work and school on Monday....

I'm thankful for:

• God
• Adam
• Aurea
• Mom and dad
• sisters, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, and all of the rest of my family
• Shawn
• all of my friends, I will not name any for fear of leaving people out or having to name way too many!
• Being healthy
• All of the blessings in life

Wonderful Weekend

Not only did I survive the weekend with my parents, but I actually had a wonderful time. We arrived late Friday night, in time to eat, talk for a few minutes, and get ready for bed. Saturday was a full day though. I talked to several friends on the phone. Then, I went to help my sister. My niece's 2nd birthday party was at a place called Extreme Gymnastics. The kids had a blast swinging from hopes, jumping on trampolines, and doing all of the fun and dangerous things to be found a gymnastics/birthday center. That afternoon I also went to run errands and ran into several old friends.

Saturday night was my dad's surprise 60th birthday party. His birthday isn't actually until tomorrow, but we didn't want to do it mid-week and this weekend is Thanksgiving weekend! Anyway, I had a date and we went to the party. Probably not the best idea to have your first date at a family party with a bunch of drunks and seemingly crazy people around! lol! Seriously though, I had a blast and so did Shawn. He keeps thanking me for showing him a great time, awww! Everyone listened to music, played pool, threw darts, and sat around talking all night, it was great!

While we were at the party, the kids were at my mom's with the 15-year-old babysitter, Morgan. Adam said, "Tell her she's here for Aurea, I don't need a babysitter. She's only 3 years older than me....is she hot?!" OMG the life of a pre-teen.... No she's not hot she's the babysitter! Whether or not he decided she was hot, they had a great time. Morgan played on myspace with him and they watched a movie and then she took Aurea downstairs to play while Adam watched TV.

Sunday I lounged around and basically did nothing all morning. We left early afternoon so we could get home before dark and get some things done around the house. Of course as my luck goes, I got pulled over on Bluegrass Parkway! Thankfully, the sheriff was really nice and did not give me a ticket! Yeah, maybe my luck is getting better........

Adam is finally ungrounded. Last night was the Premier Jewelry party. Tonight is Girl Scouts meeting. Tomorrow we go back to Glasgow for Thanksgiving on Thurs. Can we say busy?! But it's really been fun, I needed that. I guess that's it for now, if I don't get to post tomorrow, I wish everyone a safe and Happy Thanksgiving!!

3 Bathrooms...Nowhere to Go!

I live in a three bedroom, two-and-half bath townhouse. The members of my family include myself and my two children (and sometimes my boyfriend, but that's another story). Anyway, there are three rooms in my house which include a toilet and a sink. With no more people than this, we should never have issues over bathrooms, yet we do.

I was getting ready for work the other morning in the half bath and my daughter announces she needs to go, "go upstairs." Yeah, I could've shared, but it's a small room and I'm clausterphobic to begin with.... Anyway, a few minutes later I'm curling my hair and my son comes in and starts wetting his hair and making a mess. Hello, I'm getting ready here! He says he needs to get ready too, umm there are two other bathrooms in this house, pick one! What is the deal here?! I'm not sure, but it's crazy to squeeze two or three people in one tiny bathroom when there are two larger ones upstairs! I can't help it nobody actually wants to exert the energy to climb those stairs and find those mysterious bathrooms! lol!

Anyway, my son is 12 and really frustrating. I love him, but he knows how to push my buttons and sometimes I just want to scream. He got grounded for getting in trouble on the bus at school and for running his mouth. He then decides to call my parents who live almost 3 hours away and inform them I am mean and I am beating him! I would NEVER do such a thing to my child! He thinks being beaten means having his stuff taken away from him. If he only knew what other kids out there have to deal with.... Telling him this does no good though. Of course my parents call concerned (not that I'm beating him because they know I would not do that, but because he's upset and they are too far away to help). My mom's answer, "If you can't handle him, maybe he should come live with us."

Excuse me, that is my child. I can handle him, he's just 12 and mouthy and upset that the Playstation 2, DVD, TV, VCR, and pocket rocket are no longer in his room! Man the things kids have these days... He wants attention and my mom has a great way of giving it to him! I don't mean to rant here but I have to vent sometimes. It's hard enough to be a single parent without my mom deciding I can't handle it!

In other recent events, my internet got disconnected at home. I now have internet only at work (luckily, I have a job with alot of free time!). However, if I don't post as often as I like or don't get back to someone immediately -- I apologize. I am limited to whenever I'm free at work. Some days this is all day long, others, not at all. I hope to have it back soon, but who knows... When you have to pick and choose bills, internet is not the priority -- even though I'm addicted to the internet!

We are going out of town this weekend to visit my well meaning parents. I hope it is actually a nice, fun weekend since we get to go back down Wed. night to be there for Thanksgiving! Wow, I have a lot going on the next couple of weeks...

8 Random Things About Me

Christina from: utmomof5 tagged me. I'm new to this and I've never tagged or been tagged so I hope this works like it's supposed to, if it doesn't, I apologize. Anyway, check out her blog, I love it.

There are a few rules one must follow to play the game. When tagged, you must link to the person who tagged you. Then post the rules before your list, and list eight random things about yourself. At the end of the post, you must tag and link to eight other people.

8 Random Things About Me:
1. I LOVE Ranch dressing! We're not talking I get a salad and dab on some ranch, lol. No, I love ranch and eat it on almost everything. Some people think I'm crazy, but hey -- I am who I am and I love ranch!

2. I cannot ride a bicycle. I know, I know, how can you grow up in the 80s in America and not be able to ride a bike? Well, I'm stubborn and demanding. I did fine as a kid with training wheels. One day my daddy took off the training wheels and I kept falling down to the point of not wanting to ride at all. Finally, I told him I never wanted to learn and wanted nothing to do with a bike! He didn't push and by the time I decided I might care, I was ready for a car! To this day, I still cannot ride a bike!

3. I am addicted to the internet. In addition to blogging, I frequent myspace, ebay, and yahoo. I also download and play games that my son calls nerdy and girly. Oh well, I have fun in my spare time and I enjoy them thank you very much!

4. I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder, aka major mood swings. If you read one day and I sound really depressed and another I sound really elated, yeah it's the mood swings! I'm okay, really.

5. I love to read. I don't read like I used to because work, kids, house, bills,..... I just don't have the time, but I do enjoy it. Right now I'm reading "The Street Lawyer," by John Grisham.

6. I'm writing a book. It may be ten or twenty years from now before it is finished, but I'm working on a story about MS, in honor of my aunt who passed away from this dreadful disease.

7. I got pregnant/married while in high school. I hope my kids learn from me rather than repeat me, but I guess there isn't a lot I can say if they do. I just don't want them to face the same hardships I have faced.

8. I'm a great listener. Yeah, I am, running out of other things to say, sorry....

Here are the poor souls I have choosen to tag. I can't figure out how to do it any other way...
http://whosgoingtotellyou.blogspot.com/

http://rollinwiththepunches.blogspot.com/

http://jenatwork.blogspot.com/

http://familylifeinthedesert.blogspot.com/

http://theresainmerida.blogspot.com/

http://3boysundermyroof.blogspot.com/

http://catalystforsuccess.blogspot.com/

http://allmomentsremembered.blogspot.com/

Mommy, Can I go to bed now?

I think I have the only five-year-old in the world who actually comes in the room and says, "Mommy, Can I go to bed now?" Of course you may honey, if you're sleepy. Yeah right, like I'm actually going to tell her no! It's amazing, my son always wanted to sleep with me at that age. Even at 12, he no longer wants in my bed, but he doesn't want to go to bed at all either. I have to make him go to sleep. Not Aurea. Ever since she's been old enough to walk, she has gone to bed on her own. I remember once when she was two or three (I was still with her dad then), her dad and I had friends over playing cards in the kitchen. Aurea walked in and grabbed my hand without saying a word and walked us to her bed! We did go through about six months of not wanting to go to bed, but it was right after we moved, so I think it was more of a security issue. Anyway, the other night I was on the computer and she uttered these words. I just looked at her and she said, "I'm sleepy." I sent her up and promised to follow for story/tucking in time. It was so sweet. She doesn't do this every night, but even the nights I say "bedtime" loudly she does not argue, she goes and lies down until I come to tuck her in. Awww! Works for me!

The 12-year-old, on the other hand, is a night owl. He wants to stay up late and then sleep in. This is of course when he sleeps, I remember a recent slumber party where there was no slumber involved! Of course, being a boy and almost teenager, he didn't calll it a slumber party -- but that's what it was!

Anyhow, his Pocket Rocket finally arrived (FYI: If walmart.com says something will arrive in 7-10 business days, expect 11-12)! It came in Wed. even though his birthday was Halloween! Hey I drove around five counties looking for this thing before finally giving up and ordering it online! He was so excited that he had it out of the box and fully assembled and charging before I could finish cooking dinner! I was impressed! Not to mention, I didn't have to assemble a thing. lol

Well, his birthday is over and Thanksgiving is almost here, so that means...My daughter's birthday is next! Poor thing, three weeks before Christmas is hard. I try not to tie it in too much with Christmas, but I'm always broke around her birthday, it's hard. Of course, then comes Christmas....I'm ready to have summer back!!

One, Two, Freddy's Coming For You

Ghosts, goblins, ghouls, oh my! Happy belated Halloween to everyone. Yesterday was not only Halloween, but also my son's birthday. It was an interesting day, but then having a Halloween baby always makes it more fun. I love shopping for the Halloween/Birthday cards and doing all the "scary" stuff.

My daughter dressed up as a unicorn and went trick-or-treating with her dad and Nana (his mom) and got to spend the night with Nana. I picked her up and took her to school this morning - she had a blast and got tons of candy. They forgot to take pictures of her dressed up though, :( Guess I'll have to stage a couple! lol!

Anyway, so I got off work last night and went straight home and got there earlier than usual since I didn't have to stop at the daycare. Adam had a birthday card and money in the mail so he was excited. Then, we decided our night: McDonald's, Nightmare Haunted House, Trail of Terror. How exciting! Most parents know the joys of McDonald's so we'll skip the details there.

Nightmare Haunted House is held in an old warehouse between Lexington and Frankfort where the Kentucky Paranormal Investigations host the event. The story is about a girl named Sarah and her terrifying nightmares that still haunt the house despite Sarah's death. For more on Sarah and the story, go to http://www.2scary.com/

Anyway, we get there and Ghost Ship is playing on the movie screen while you wait in line. There was the option of the last ride simulator, but I'm clausterphobic, no thanks! We get in and hear the tale of Sarah and some girl chants her name in the mirror 3 times. Then, "Sarah" pops out and tells everyone to get out of her house. She told Adam to go trick-or-treating and leave her house NOW! It was funny. We continue through the house with Sarah's grandma yielding a machete and all of your normal Halloween stuff. (Note to all: I HATE chainsaws) The chainsaw man doesn't scare me and I make smart remarks to the actors so I have them laughing too hard to chase me or anything. Adam tells one guy he looks like a mutated Easter Bunny! Then, we enter Nightmare Theatre. Ok, it's a simulated movie theater full of (fake) dead bodies and Texas Chainsaw Massacre is playing on the giant movie screen. We are in the middle of the theatre, so I'm looking around expecting one of the "dead" bodies to jump at me or the ground to start shaking. NOOOO, the Texas Chainsaw guy jumps out of the movie screen (I'm in the very back of the group) and starts chasing me through the theatre and the house! Needless to say, I didn't stay the last person for long, I screamed and ran!! After he quit chasing me, I got back in the back of the line. We went across a swinging bridge with room spinning disco style and got dizzy! We went through a maze too. It was cool, we had a ball and Adam loved it!!

Next, we went to Trail of Terror at Jacobson Park. Jacobson Park is a huge park with playground, ducks, paddle boats, you name it. At the back of the park is a small lake and wooded area. The Trail of Terror is a mile long haunted woods. We entered and walked along, la la la. Oh look, it's Freddy, it's Jason, oh cool the girl from Saw with her head in that contraption! Then, we get to a small house with moving floors and these things squeezing us through like a carwash sponge or something. Yep, more chainsaws and girls behind me screaming like crazy. The moving bridge was much easier than the first one. Then, we're walking and come up on "Welcome to Camp Crystal Lake" so we're walking and looking for the next chainsaw guy or something and "Jason" pops out of "Crystal Lake" and runs up the bank after us!! Finally, we go through the bus of horror (mainly ghostly sounds) and come out the other side.

We get home and Adam wants to watch "Halloween" so I say I'm going to take a quick bath first. Quick it was, remember the phone syndrome? Well, as I get in the tub, my phone starts ringing like crazy. Everyone wants to wish Adam a happy birthday and I'm upstairs and he's downstairs (I only have a cell phone, no home phone). So I assure everyone he will call them back and take the world's fastest bath to head down and watch scary movies. He was ready for bed shortly into Halloween H20, but hey it was a fun and interesting night. My son loved his 12th birthday and I enjoyed having just the two of us!

The Phone Syndrome

I'm calling it the phone syndrome. Yesterday I'm sitting around the house and it's nice and peaceful. Adam is outside playing ball with friends and Aurea is up in her room playing quietly. I decide to pick up the phone and call my mom for a little chat, here comes Adam, Drew, and Devon running in chattering then Aurea comes downstairs and decides she needs attention and wants to talk my ear off. Later on, I get a phone call, Aurea is hungry, thirsty, and sleepy all at once as soon as I start talking. What is it about the phone that suddenly makes kids need attention? I call it the phone syndrome. Ok maybe receiving a call where they hear the phone ring would grab attention, but they do it when I'm making the calls too! I just don't get it....Anyway, both phone calls ended up going well despite the interruptions.

Tonight is the football banquet, this should be interesting. Pot luck banquet at that, guess I better come up with a side dish really fast! Hopefully, girl scouts is tomorrow if we have our room yet.

Not the highlight of my week

I went to the doctor the other day for my annual exam. Supposed to be routine and normal right? Wrong! She said I had a uterine fibroid, but it's just a fibrous tumor and may or may not require surgery, don't worry. Yeah right! I'm a worrier!! Tumor and surgery is all I heard. Afterward though I calmed down and did some research. So yesterday I went to the hospital for an ultrasound.

The good news: I do NOT have a fibroid on my uterus! Yippee! Now I'm thinking, I took off work half a day to spend 3 hours at the hospital having two different ultrasounds and being really stressed and uncomfortable for nothing. After we were done, the radiologist came in to tell me I didn't have a fibroid. I asked him why all the symptoms and pain then, he said, "Well a lot of women have heavy periods." What! That is the least of it, it's about more than that and he said he didn't need to know all that and left! What would he know about it?!

Anyway, I asked the ultrasonographer (or whatever she's called) if it wasn't a fibroid causing my problems then what was it? She said she didn't know that all the ultrasound showed was no fibroid or abnormality except for my uterus being tilted too far forward and pressing on my bladder. She then told me my Gyno will get the results and I can call her Tuesday to see what she says. Then, she said I'd probably either be referred to a specialist or sent for a CT Scan. In other words,I really don't know a thing.

So I leave the parking garage which costs (yes the hospital charges to park!) $2.25 for 1-3 hours. I get my money out and the lady at the booth says $3.00. What? I was here for 3 hours and she corrects me, "No, you were here for 3 hours and 1 minute, that will be $3.00." UGH
Anyway, I came home still an hour earlier than usual and went straight to the bathtub to make myself feel better.

Don't get me wrong, I am relieved that it wasn't a fibroid. But if that isn't causing my problems, what is? Guess I get to continue to wait....For now I'll be glad it's not a fibroid and try not to think about calling Dr. Saunders on Tuesday...

Did I mention on my way home from the hospital, I get a message from my son that he HAS to have a poster tonight to finish his math project for tomorrow? Exactly what I felt like stopping for on my way home! At least I didn't have to pick up my daughter too (her dad got her for the night) and then drag her into the store to whine for everything in sight. I love my children, don't get wrong, but I did not feel real great yesterday so having only one child (who knows when to give me space) for the evening was great.

Of course being the mom, I still got to help with the math poster. It was actually really cute when he got finished. The report card came home yesterday too, 2 A's, 3 B's, 1 C, I'm not a C fan, but he did work hard, not to mention, it was one point from a B. Way to go son, maybe now you can be ungrounded since deciding to call people in my phone book you don't like and telling them never to call me again! Yeah, he did that. Gotta love puberty!!

I must be crazy

"Mom, can I have a boy/girl dance for my birthday?" This came from my son several weeks ago when deciding on a birthday party. Of course my first reaction was NO!!! but I was his age when I had my first boy/girl party so I said ok to a small party. After going back and forth on where he wanted it, he finally decided like 3 weeks ago. Of course, having a child born on Halloween means we have to compete with Halloween parties, especially waiting until the last minute! So of course, the place he wanted was booked through the end of the year. After many calls, I finally booked a place for Oct. 20th (yes, yesterday), since everything else was taken. Then, I bought invitations and he sent out like 40! OMG what have I gotten myself into!

I spent time preparing, buying refreshments, getting another chaperone, etc. So on Thurs. I realized I forgot to order a cake! My friend who makes cakes needed more than two days notice! Luckily, Wal-mart bakery only needed 24 hours notice, and that's exactly what they ended up getting! The kids had been at mom's for fall break so I was able to do everything Thurs. and Fri., the problem was that the Pocket Rocket Adam wanted for his birthday was nowhere to be found. Believe me, I spend 4 hours Thurs. night either driving to or calling every Wal-mart, Mejier, Target, Toys'R'Us, and Dick's Sporting Goods in four counties! (Why do I procrastinate -- oh yeah, can't take him shopping with me!) Anyway, I finally gave up and ordered the pocket rocket online complete with 7-10 business days for site-to-store shipping! Ahhhh!

Anyway, mom brought the kids home yesterday after I spent all morning cleaning and gluing a picture of a pocket rocket into a birthday card! After doing all the preparation, picking up the cake, and fielding calls from people wanting to know where the building was located, my other chaperone cancels on me!! We picked up the skater cake and went to set up the party.

Unfortunately for Adam, but fortunately for myself (the only chaperone), only 15 kids showed up to the party! For three hours, I chased kids who decided to run outside the building and let other kids try to lock me out (luckily I had keys, if you're ever in this situation, keep building keys on you at all times!!) while I'm running around. Then, rather than dance, it is apparently more fun to throw ice down people's shirts and then try to slide across the now wet floor without falling! They also like stealing each other's shoes and taking turns talking on cell phones!! How old are these kids? Ages 10-12, what's up with the phones and crap?! Ugh they just keep getting younger.

Adam was disappointed only 15 people showed, I was happy. One friend got back from vacation mid-party and came straight from the airport! I am grateful to his mother who decided to stay and help clean up afterward so we could finish on time and get my deposit back!!

It was certainly an interesting night! We got home and unloaded around 11:30, they wore me out!! Glad that's over. Now for his real birthday, haunted housing on Halloween! Oh and did I mention my gratitude to my mother who stayed home with my 5-year-old daughter during all this? Thank you.

Puberty comes more than once

I once heard someone say to be grateful that puberty only comes but once, this person obviously did not have children! I am going through puberty again, not my own, but my son's. Did I really give my mom that much grief? Was I that moody and stubborn and know-it-all? Probably, I'm sorry mom. The trouble is that I understand it in girls and I'll be ready when my daughter goes through it (at least I think I will, but I doubt any parent is ever really ready), but it's different with boys. I have no brothers and my dad didn't discuss boy changes with me, I was a girl! So when my son's voice cracks and he asks how long it will take to change -- I stare at him dumbfounded. He says I should know this, of course, I'm Mom Almighty the all wise one who knows all! Unfortunately, I don't know these things, but I try. I made the mistake of laughing when his voice cracked, "It's not funny mom!" Well, actually it is, but I'll try not to laugh out loud the next time!

My daughter has a beautiful voice and sings so well, her music teacher even said she had the best voice in the class! Wow, she didn't get that from me! Adam used to have a decent singing voice, but it's hard to sing with your voice cracking between notes! I can't sing a lick. Last night, Aurea was singing "Free Fallin" and friend said she was too young to know that song, hey, it could've been "Last Dance with Mary Jane" or one of my many Akon songs (I listen to a wide variety of music) but I do pick and choose what I let her hear! Hey, I can only listen to Hannah Montana and High School Musical so many times, I have to stop and listen to my music once in a while and since she's usually with me, she hears it. I can't help it that the child can hear a song once or twice and repeat back like almost every word!

On a more somber note, I went to the doctor the other day for my annual exam. Supposed to be routine and normal right? Wrong! She said I had a uterine fibroid, but it's just a fibrous tumor and may or may not require surgery, don't worry. Yeah right! I'm a worrier!! Tumor and surgery is all I heard. Afterward though I calmed down and did some research. According to

Medline Plus:
"Uterine fibroids are the most common non-cancerous tumors in women of childbearing age. Fibroids are made of muscle cells and other tissues that grow in and around the wall of the uterus, or womb. The cause of fibroids is unknown. Risk factors include being African-American or being overweight. (go figure, I'm neither one!!)
Many women with uterine fibroids have no symptoms. If you have symptoms, they may include
Heavy or painful periods or bleeding between periods
Feeling "full" in the lower abdomen
Urinating often
Pain during sex
Lower back pain
Reproductive problems, such as infertility, multiple miscarriages or early labor "

Well, I've had almost all of these symptoms, but didn't know this was the reason. I self-treated for bladder infections and crap thinking it was nothing or too much caffeine or something. Who knows?!

Anyway, they put me on medication and I go for an ultrasound next Thurs. the 25th (happy birthday mom!) so they can determine if I simply need to continue medication or have surgery. Now it's minor surgery but the idea still scares me! The hardest part is waiting and then waiting after for the results! ugh! I also have a GI appointment in December.

This really sucks!!! Any women out there with those symptoms, DON'T self-diagnose, go see your doctor immediately! I know it's a pain, but it could help you. Then, write me if you want to vent. I understand!

And they're off....

Here comes Wiggles squirming and wiggling around while Roxanne tries to take care of her, Shadow is trying to run and explore, Aurea is chasing Shadow who is now chasing Wiggles...Robert the maintenance guy is trying to work but here comes Shadow around the corner, ohhh time to chase Wiggles who is now trying to hide and under everything, Shadow is now upstairs, go Aurea go run!! Ok, I'm being silly, but that is sort of what my house was like last night.

After work, I had a parent-teacher conference at Aurea's school, we have a lot of work to do! She's just not where she needs to be, and I'd say her vision issues contribute to that a great deal. Then, we get home and cook and eat while trying to play scavenger hunt (sending Aurea to find things in the house that start with a certain letter, I thought it would be fun when I made it up, she didn't!) and the phone ringing. Adam is on the phone, Aurea is whining and trying to find stuff, I'm trying to cook and talk on the phone...

After supper, Roxanne came over with Shadow (her ferret), she's going on vacation soon and I'm ferret sitting so she wanted Shadow and Wiggles (my ferret) to be around each other, get their nails (claws? whatever) trimmed and all this stuff before she actually leaves. She was trying to cut Wiggles' nails for me, by the way, there is a reason she is named Wiggles! lol That ferret would not be still and was trying to get to Shadow. In the meantime, the maintenance man comes to fix the sink which is apparently clogged by a grease chunk (ewww) and a popsicle stick! How did the popsicle stick get down there to begin with? Ask Aurea, I'm sure that was her doing! Anyway, he goes to wash his hands in the bathroom and gets cornered by a ferret (can't remember which one), which I'm sure he loved.

Adam is yet again on the phone, Aurea is chasing ferrets around the house, Roxanne is helping with the ferrets, I'm trying to watch Aurea and the ferrets and listen to Robert and the stupid phone is still ringing! Finally, Robert leaves and the three days worth of dishes can be done after Roxanne hunts down Shadow and heads home! Adam helped me with dishes and Aurea, thank you!

Then, Adam says tomorrow is the pep rally for the big football game, East vs. West (go East!!) and he wants his face painted, pleassse mom! So I paint his face and help with homework before sending the kids to bed and finally getting a little peace and quiet.

This morning, I got to touch up the face paint half his face is green with a blue E (East) and the other half is blue with a green J (Jaguars), he looked ready for football! Tonight is the big game and we're done with football! Yippeee!!

Random thoughts and updates

Let's see, my cousin Chris and his wife Carla had their baby. Her name is Brooklyn Ann, Jeff and Jeanie's baby Gracie is doing good. Yes, Chris and Jeff are brothers and both have new babies! I feel sorry for Aunt Margie and Uncle Terry! Mom just told me last night Carla had a C-section because Brooklyn was breech, that's about all I really know right now. Too bad I'm not in Glasgow to go to the hospital. :(


Anyway, last night was Adam's football game and homecoming, he got really excited. We won 20-0. Go Jaguars!! Tonight, Aurea starts Girl Scouts. Both are doing well. Adam's ready for fall break and his birthday. Aurea is always asking for her birthday, poor baby, I can't help that I had her 3 weeks before Christmas and she has to wait a whole year for either one!

Still job hunting, I had a couple of interviews this week, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I really want one of them... I guess that's really it. Just working and coming home to two kids and an otherwise empty house, sigh! I need to make more friends or get a boyfriend or something, I'm so bored and lonely at night now! I love my kids but they aren't much on conversation except Hannah Montana, football, and middle school happenings! I love some aspects of being single and despise others, I guess that's life huh?


October 1, 2007 - Monday
In remembrance:
Six years ago today, Adam was 5 and I was 7-months pregnant with Aurea. Shannon, Adam, and I lived in Cave City. Mom got Adam off of the school bus. I'm not sure why, but Shannon and I both went home before picking up Adam that day. As soon as I put my stuff down, the phone rang and it was mom. I thought she was going to be upset I wasn't there yet, but I answered and she just told me to get over there right away. I knew something was wrong so Shannon and I both got in the car and drove to her house....

My grandfather, Truman, had been through a lot. He had had a heart attack recently and the doctors told him to rest. However, it wasn't in Papa to rest. He wanted to farm, it was in his blood, that's what he enjoyed most. Oct. 1, 2001 (the day mom called us over) Papa Truman went out to farm that morning. When he got hot he sat at a picnic table to rest, that's where he was found lying...

When we got to mom's house, she told us that Papa Truman had passed. It was hard. We weren't really that close, but the only death I had ever dealt with until then had been my great-aunt and uncle, whom I loved, but didn't know real well. It was the first time someone that close to me passed away.

I'll spare the rest because I'm sure everyone can figure out the funeral and everything that followed. Every year after until I moved, I would go with Granny Gladys and daddy to Metcalfe County (where the family cemetary is located) to visit Papa's grave on this day. I can't go this year, but I will go the next time I'm in Glasgow and able to drive over to Summer Shade.

It doesn't seem like it's really been six years. I miss him dearly. Adam and Madison are really the only great-grandkids to know him and they were little (Adam was 5, I think Madison was 4). Hunter and Brandon were born but they were less than a year old. It's funny though that even though Adam was so little, he can still remember riding the tractor and farming with Papa Truman!

Anyway, I better stop this stroll down memory lane. I just wanted to remember Papa on this day.


September 27, 2007 - Thursday
Updates
My poor baby! I have been worried about Aurea's eyesight for awhile and when the doctors said she might need surgery I was even more worried. Fortunately, they decided to wait awhile to see if there were any changes. There have been changes! Yesterday I got to daycare and they asked if she had vision problems. "Her eyes cross and both eyes are 20/40 and....why, what happened?!" Apparently, she got off the daycare van and ran into the brick wall. My first reaction, she's a kid she wasn't paying attention and watching where she was going right? No, her eyes blurred and she actually did not see the side of the building before running into it and busting her lip! Now I'm really concerned. I called the doctor this morning, we have an appointment next week.....


Adam has a football game tonight and my dad is coming up to stay the night and go to the game. I'm excited, I know Adam will love having grandpa at the game. Also, school is out tomorrow for inservice or something so they get to spend the morning together before dad has to go back to Glasgow!

I'm just being bored and lonely as usual. My job sucks. My boss seems to think I'm a complete idiot. One day she's awesome and lets me do pretty much whatever I want. The next day she jumps down my throat for the least little thing. I know we all get in moods (Lord knows I do!) but geez, it's really annoying sometimes. For example, I'm allowed to keep my cell phone on and take calls as long as my work gets done and I don't stay on it all day (usually), but yesterday Aurea's school calls and she yells at me for being on the phone-- this is work! Hello, my daughter comes first and the one time you decide to bitch about the phone it's the school! I didn't say that or anything else actually, I bit my lip instead, but I wanted to say a lot of things!!


Random:
I went to Speedway on my lunch break the other day and saw three ducks waddling across the parking lot. I have no idea, there is no pond (to my knowledge) anywhere on Tates Creek Road, but whatever, it was interesting.

Still trying to find a new job, day care assistance raised my co-pay again and I'm broke-- why do they go by gross income anyhow? And when were these rates set, the 60's?
Ok, I could go on all day about the last one but I have other things to do today...

September 25, 2007 - Tuesday
Thoughts for the day
Received this in an email, but I thought it would be fun to post here:

Things to think about that you probably have never thought about and will never think about again:



Can you cry under water?

How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?

Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. . but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?

Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?

Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

What disease did cured ham actually have?

How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?

Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours?

If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?

Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?

Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?

Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.

Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural

Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?

If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?

Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?

If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?

Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!

If Wiley E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?

If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?

If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?

Why did you just try singing the two songs above?

Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?

Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride; he sticks his head out the window?

Do you ever wonder why you gave me your e-mail address in the first place?

Parent Job Description
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This was sent to me in an email too, but I thought I'd share, it's funny

PARENT - Job DescriptionThis is hysterical. If it had been presented this way,I don't believe any of us would have done it!!!!

POSITION :Mom , Mom my, Mama, MaDad , Dad dy, Dad a, Pa, Pop

JOB DESCRIPTION :Long term, team players needed, for challengingpermanent work in an often chaotic environment.Candidates must possess excellent communicationand organizational skills and be willing to workvariable hours, which will include evenings and weekendsand frequent 24 hour shifts on-call.Some overnight travel required, including trips toprimitive camping sites on rainy weekends and
endless sports tournaments in far away cities!Travel expenses not reimbursed.Extensive courier duties also required.

RESPONSIBILITIES :For the rest of your life.Must be willing to be hated, at least temporarily,until someone needs $5.Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly.Also, must possess the physical stamina of a pack muleand be able to go from zero to 60 mph in three seconds flatin case, this time, the screams fromthe backyard are not someone just crying wolf.Must be willing to face stimulating technical challenges,such as small gadget repair, mysteriously sluggish toiletsand stuck zippers.Must screen phone calls, maintain calendars andcoordinate production of multiple homework projects.Must have ability to plan and organize social gatheringsfor clients of all ages and mental outlooks.Must be willing to be indispensable one minute,an embarrassment the next.Must handle assembly and product safety testing of ahalf million cheap, plastic toys, and battery operated devices.Must always hope for the best but be prepared for the worst.Must assume final, complete accountability forthe quality of the end product.Responsibilities also include floor maintenance andjanitorial work throughout the facility.

POSSIBILITY FOR ADVANCEMENT & PROMOTION :None.Your job is to remain in the same position for years,
without complaining, constantly retraining and updating your skills,so that those in your charge can ultimately surpass you.

PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE :None required unfortunately.On-the-job training offered on a continually exhausting basis.

WAGES AND COMPENSATION :Get this! You pay them!Offering frequent raises and bonuses.A balloon payment is due when they turn 18 becauseof the assumption that college will help thembecome financially independent.When you die, you give them whatever is left.The oddest thing about this reverse-salary scheme is thatyou actually enjoy it and wish you could only do more.

BENEFITS :While no health or dental insurance, no pension,no tuition reimbursement, no paid holidays andno stock options are offered;this job supplies limitless opportunities for personal growthand free hugs and kisses for life if you play your cards right.Forward this on to all the PARENTS you know,
in appreciation for everything they do on a daily basis,letting them know they are appreciated for the fabulous job they do.........>

Awww!!

I feel so good. I worked hard cleaning this house today, no big deal right? Yeah, it's usually one of those have to things I never get credit for. Anyway, tonight Adam told me the house looked awesome and Drew came over and looked around and just said "Dang!" Awwww, thank you guys. It's nice to actually have little things noticed sometimes.

Last night, Shana took Adam, Drew, and Tiffany to City Limits. It's this little place in town that hosts dances for middle school students every Friday night. It's like a club, but it's only for kids in local middle schools and it's chaperoned so it's great for the kids. I went and picked the kids up at 10 p.m. after the dance. They were going nuts! Talk about girlfriends and boys and everything, it was crazy. I feel old! My Friday nights have been reduced to picking up pre-teens from a dance and listening to gossip on the way home! Oh well, the kids had fun and it's all part of being a parent right?!

Nobody reads these so I don't guess it matters what I say, I'm just bored and lonely and sitting home on a Saturday night. I got to go out a couple of weeks ago so I guess I really shouldn't complain. It just stinks. Amber moved to Florida and I don't have a lot of other friends here. Sure I have plenty to call and say hi, but none to really talk and hang out with. I really need to make friends here, but it's hard. I work all week and then stay home with kids all weekend. Even if I don't have kids, I really don't want to go out on my own. I know, strange I guess.

I'm really okay, I just get in moods. Blame it on the BPD!! The joys of mood swings and depression. I do okay most of the time, but sitting home alone typing on myspace really doesn't help lift my mood. We're going to church tomorrow so hopefully getting out of the house other than grocery shopping or work will help. I guess that's it since I'm starting to ramble. If anyone actually reads this, thanks for listening.

Introduction

Okay, I know I'm no Dawn Meehan, so I don't expect 600 comments on each of my blogs. However, one on the first one would have been nice! Oh well, I'm just getting started and doubt anyone has even read the first one yet.

Anyway, after re-reading the first blog I realzed I just jumped right in. If anyone does read this, I better introduce myself. My name is Kathy and I am 29-years-old. I am a single mother of two beautiful children, ages 5 and 11. I live just outside Lexington, Kentucky and love the area. Unfortunately, I must work a full-time job outside of the house to support those two growing children. I suppose you will learn more about me with time if you continue reading.

Last night I hung out at my friend Shana's house. Her husband, Shawn, just bought them a new fire pit and was very excited about having a fire last night. It was very smoky, but nice, especially once it got dark and the temperature dropped.

Before it got dark, my daughter decided to talk to the "big" boys, you know those 11 and 12 year olds throwing the football, lol She ran right up to one of them mid-catch and he got hit by the ball! Poor thing, I don't know what got into her, you don't run up to somebody getting ready to catch a football, but she is 5! Thankfully, he was not hurt.

I'm fortunate to have a neighborhood full of nice neighbors. When it is not cold and raining, we all sit outside and gossip and watch the kids play. It's great!!

Aurea's open house at school the other night was cute-- she learned the Months Macerana (yes it's the macerana dance, but they sing to the months of the year) and we did scavenger hunt and bookfair. Of course, she bought the story of Miley Cyrus. What is it with that girl, Aurea loves her and so does Adam! Guess I should be glad my kids actually have something in common! lol Aurea got a note from her music teacher saying she is the best singer in class. Awwww, she certainly does not get that from me!!

Well I guess that's it for now, I try to be creative, but I'm tired at the moment. More to come...

Too funny

We were at my mom's house this weekend and my son, Adam, found a pair of black heels lying in the floor. Now I don't know the exact words, but he asked my mom who they belonged to and said they were hot! When she told him they were his mom's, he said something to the effect of ewww mom's not supposed to be hot! They can't be her's. Too funny, so because I'm a mom I can't wear "hot" shoes?! Now come on, I'm not exactly old (even though he tells me constantly that I am -- I guess when you're 11, anything over 20 is old!). And I know I'm not the sexiest woman on planet Earth, but I would like to think I can be a little hot!

Okay, so as I mentioned in the previous blog, I took the kids out to eat Sun. night. I gave Adam a list of places and he picked Chili's, which is great with me, he likes spicy stuff too so it was good. Aurea, my daughter, just gets kid's meals anyway. So we're talking about different issues. Anyway, we somehow got to the topic of my love life. Now I understand he should have input to an extent, after all, he's going to be around anybody I date seriously but he does not get to pick and choose. Well he tells me I need to find somebody new who is a "good guy." Yeah, that helps!! And those are just lining up on my doorstep right? lol So then he decides I need to ask out the waiter. When I told him no he said I was a wuss (I think that's how you spell it). I'm not a wuss for not asking out our waiter, I just don't know him, I'm not attracted to him, and I'm not interested I say. Wait a minute...why am I even telling him anything, he's 11 for crying out loud! He doesn't pick my dates. I think I'm capable of finding someone without the help of my son thank you very much. At least he cares enough to look out for his mom, but this whole conversation was just way tooooo funny! Besides, call me old fashioned, but I think the guy should ask the girl out anyway...

Whatever happend to men asking women out, holding the door for them, etc.The carriage riders in Nashville looked excited and romantic sigh!! I guess that's too much to ask, but I'll stick to looking for myself...

On another note, Nashville amazes me. If you have a couple drinks and walk down the street in Lexington, you're likely going to get arrested for public intoxication or at the very least get a nice warning for being drunk in public. Not in Nashville, people were walking down the sidewalks while drinking with beer bottles in hand clearly visible and the police sitting right on the other side! Go figure. Wonder if there is some unwritten law in Nashville...more likely I would say there are just so many people they figure it's not worth the effort. It was just hillarious all the things people were doing right in front of the cops!